Mother’s Day

Journal entry by Ann — May 13, 2018
I wake up today heavy missing my boy. This sting happens to my heart every day my eyes open. It is a new day, but the ache is the same .
As I wake my eyes are groggy with sleep. My body weighted with exhaustion. My brain cruelly reminds my heart that he had passed away and will not be returning. Now I must get up and put my smile upon my face. I’ve had a lifetime of practice smiling through the pain. Sadly I can say I am really good at it.

This morning I get out of bed to smiles, hugs, and the wishings of Happy Mother’s Day. This brings joy and sadness to my heart at the same time. As I exit the hall I peer at the spot at the table that he sat at every morning almost with a hope of him being there though I know he won’t be there again.
Logan Is in heaven with the ultimate parent. I must remain here to be the mom God has called me to be. I am here to love them, teach the Bible, be an example to, guide their hearts, and walk along side them through all of lives journeys.
I will ask God to help keep my mind and heart focused those things and more. Those are some of the jobs He has my heart longing to fulfill. Because of Him and His strength in me I can.
Please love each other and appreciate all that God has gifted your life with.
Love and hugs, Ann