Birthdays

Journal entry by Ann— Oct 20, 2018
October holds three more birthdays in our house without Logie. I know this will be for the rest of our lives and I accept that fact even though I don’t like it. I don’t think people understand the depth of the loss we feel on these special days. For every holiday and birthday it was usually just the 8 of us with the day holding special times and events. Just being together, hanging outside, playing games, cooking special meals, and much laughter was something we all looked forward to. The loss is felt much heavier on these days.
Logan made these days extra special. He always wanted to be the first one to say happy Birthday. He would set his alarm to be able to accomplish this surprise and cook your favorite thing for breakfast. Gifts aren’t everything, but giving them was important to Logan. He would spend all the money he had saved to get you that special something. His excitement for birthdays and holidays was infectious. He was thoughtful about what he gave. Though if you got a gift from him I’m sure it was some kind of weapon. He thought everyone should have a knife and always carry it. He really didn’t understand why people didn’t want them. For him attaching several kinds of weapons to his body was like you and me putting on pants. All just part of getting dressed in the morning.
My mother’s day gift the year before his accident was a purple knife, now it’s my favorite things to put in my pocket when I get ready for the day. It feels as though a piece of him is with me.
Enjoy your loved ones. Value the time you get with each of them. Time here is short appreciate all the people God placed in your life.

Hugs and Love, Ann