Journal entry by Ann — Oct 24, 2018
As two of my daughters birthdays have come and gone there is a bit of a sting with the new ages that they have turned. It’s not just the fact that Logan is not here to share on their day that causes pain for all of us. It’s the agony of him being absent for all special occasions. But I know this one is extremely difficult right now for one of my girls. I think passing up her older brother in age is just another realization that he is gone, he wont age, and he isn’t coming back. Watching one of my daughters grieve this fact these past couple weeks causes an ache that can’t be described by this mama’s already broken heart. Please pray for my girls as they continue to grieve. There are so many unknowns in the days ahead of what will trigger sadness, pain, or hard days.
It also just stuck me that on my birthday today, I also passed up my older brother. He died from cancer just 9 months before Logan. Those are things that just shouldn’t be. It doesn’t seem right or fair for those that have to hurt with this kind of loss.
God knows our pain and He doesn’t leave us. We are precious gems to our Heavenly Father. I think He hurts when we hurt, after all He created is in His image. I like this promise in His Scriptures.
Psalm 56:8
You keep track of all my sorrows.[b]
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.
Have a blessed day. Hugs and love, Ann
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