Not the End

Journal entry by Ann — Apr 18, 2018
Will the missing ever stop? The harsh answer is no! The sting of death might ease. The shock may wear off. But the heaviness of my heart will not cease to exist. The longing for my boy will not fade.
He is gone and death is final here on earth, but I have to remind myself this is not the end. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I couldn’t wait to meet this new baby that would bring great joy to our lives. The ultra sound showed a boy and we were extremely excited. He did bring joy and he also brought a whole new dynamic to the house. Testosterone! Despite the constant ear infections, surgeries, and doctor appointments he was a happy baby. He brought joy, laughter, and much silliness to our house. When you mixed Laney with Logie you never knew what to expect, pure crazy with a side of chaos! Oh and a bad haircut from a sister!
Bre was the boss and always trying to get them to behave properly, but that could not be accomplished. She was always trying to take care of them.
A younger KaLee and Logie together was naughtiness. Like spraying pop on the wall, squeezing toothpaste on the counter, and stealing candy.
Ashy and Logie spent much on the trampoline where a wrestling match was sure to take place.
And of course Jaci waited to be entertained which he loved doing she owned him!
There was much laughter with all his sisters. He was a great brother. Too bad he never got to tell all you boys the secret girl codes. I think he had figured them out.😉
For years Logan has said he was ready to go to heaven and that he would beat me there. Not sure if God shared a little secret with him, but he was right. I have no doubt that once he was in the Saviors arms he no longer wanted to come back here and be with us. I can only imagine what he is experiencing, continual peace, fullness of love, heavenly comfort, and purest of joy.
This is not the end. There is a final resting place. For those who choose to live for Jesus eternal life awaits. No death, pain, sorrow, or tears. All that we have experienced here on earth will be forgiven if we ask. We will be made whole. All the hard that we have endured in this place will be wiped away. We will only experience the purest of joy with our Savior. Come Lord Jesus come.
Love and hugs, Ann