Dreams

Journal entry by Ann — May 31, 2018
Mornings start dusty when my dreams are filled with Logan all night.
Every dream he is in I am over joyed to see him. BUT then he doesn’t pay attention to me or answer me.
He just stands there.
These is no eye contact.
No hugs for me.
No movements towards me.
The loving, warm, and snuggly Logan I knew is not there, just empty.
The ever present smile that I longed to see is no where on his face.
The silly acts that I got to be involved in are absent.
I yell out to him and there is no answer. Then he just fades away and disappears. He leaves me standing there weeping. Only for me to wake up and find that tears are running down my face onto my already dampened pillow.
This is just another cruel reminder that he is gone and all those things that I loved about him will be no more. Just warm memories I grasp and cling to. It leaves vacancy in my heart that can’t be filled.
Love and hugs , Ann