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Journal entry by Ann — Dec 20, 2017
Some prayer is needed. Monday night I was driving down a hill in Duluth and the roads were so icy I couldn’t stop. I had to make a quick decision to continue down into cars stopped at a stop sign or try to turn and hope I could make the road. I chose to turn, but I didn’t quite make it. I ran over a fire hydrant and completely took it off. I ended up in someone’s front yard, but God was good. I had two daughters with me and checked to see if they were fine. No physical injuries. God is good. We got out of the car hugged until people started coming out to see if we needed help. A very nice man even offered us hot chocolate or food. They were all very kind I figured they must see this alot throughout the winter months. God placed just the right people on that corner to comfort us. He is good.
We surveyed the damage, made the proper phone calls, and realized just how blessed we were. The car was as big as the yard we were parked in, but the it was placed just between a tree, wrought iron fence, and the house. The fence and house were about a foot away from the car on the front and side. We waited and snuggled. The whole process took about an hour and 15 minutes.
There are many thoughts that go through your head in the moments before impact. Racing through my head all at once were thoughts like…..I don’t want to hurt someone, behind the wall of that house could be a child I crash into, I don’t want to wreck Scott’s car, I heard a scream so my girls are scared, and Lord please don’t let ME kill my girls! And of course thoughts of Logan rushed through.
I am burdened at what this accident has lain upon my family. The panic that must have gone through those at home or work weighs heavy on my heart. I can hardly bare the thought at what three more missing from our house would have done to their already broken hearts. We continue to grieve a heavy loss how could anyone bare more! There are constant reminders that I am not in control. I have put my faith and trust in God who knows best and I will follow where ever He is leading me. Even if it is painful. I have found for me that good always comes out of hard. God is good.
The saying “life is precious” is used way too frivolously. It is precious and we take for granted that our time here with people we love is a given. Every breath we breathe is a gift and the time we get here should be used in ways that honor Him. Again I am reminded that all can change in a moments time. Often we should be letting those in our life know how valuable and loved they are. God is good.
Last night while I sat in shock, but safe snuggled on my couch and the girls were all tucked in bed I couldn’t help but think it could have been a whole different scenario. There was no ambulance ride, stay in the hospital, or the planning of my funeral or for the three of us. Yes God is good! We all need a reminder that everything happens for a reason. He sees the big picture, we don’t, so that’s where complete trust comes into play.
Please pray for my daughters hearts that they would not feel fear, have bad dreams, or that this would not allow them to doubt God’s goodness in any way. He allowed it, but He protected us. Let this be one of those things that we can work through with ease. Of course for Scott also. I’m sure you can all imagine what has gone through his mind and heart. Thank you. Hugs and Love, Ann