surgery

Journal entry by Ann — Jun 14, 2017
At the hospital now. This place releases emotions, feelings, and a heaviness of my heart. I got to sit with Scott for a time while we waited for doctor to come in. It was a nice time together of chatting, but also of comfortable silence. We walked down the hall I gave a hug and a kiss and sent him off with the nurse. I said I love you, but as it came out I looked at the nurse she may have thought it was for her!
As I sit and wait I can’t help but think about Logan. He wanted Scott too get this shoulder surgery so they could do more things together and his dad wouldn’t be in pain. So really at this time Scott is doing this for Logie.
I know this is a routine procedure, but I have to fight off the thoughts that he may not wake up. I find myself nervous to pray Lord, your will be done. I feel panic rush through my body. Surely God wouldn’t allow Scott to be taken home too, at least not right now when we are still so heavy hearted, right!
When the worry or panic comes I pray,
“Lord, I trust you and I know you have this too. I accept your will and I humbly offer my thanks and praise. You are the God of perfection. You love your children and hear their pleas. You know me, Lord. Please hear the cry of my heart.”
Love and hugs, Ann