Mother’s Day

Journal entry by Ann — May 13, 2017
As Mother’s day approaches I am thinking extra about Logan. One less to share the day with. Logie would always give me a big smile and wish me a Happy Mother’s Day. I would also get the best hug! I sure do miss his hugs. He gave you a real hug not just one of those quick taps on the back like some kids do just to get the hug over with. I will be thinking of him tomorrow as I am surrounded my all my girls. Appreciating his thoughtfulness and love for me.
Everyday this week I have been gardening. You might think that is a time I wouldn’t be thinking extra about him, but I am. Logan was either helping me with the gardening chores or sitting near where I was working talking my ear off. Oh, how I miss those talks. I loved hearing all the thoughts, ideas, and better ways for everyone to do things. We would joke that if people would just listen to our ideas and the RIGHT ways (OUR WAY) to do things the world would be a better place. Lets just say it has been a very dusty week.
Today I was working in the back yard doing a lot of raking, four hours worth! As I was raking by the wood shed I began to cry and as I was asking myself out loud, “What’s the matter with you?”
I realized Logie didn’t get to finish chopping all the logs into smaller pieces so they would burn easily when we had a camp fire. That was his goal this summer to finish the whole pile. Then as I composed myself and I said out loud again, “I will finish it for him.” So I asked Scott to teach me how to chop the wood and he said maybe he should do it since I shouldn’t have sharp things. How well does my husband know me? He is so right my clumsiness would take over and I could lose a finger, toe, or chop my own shin! My name means graceful, but that’s a funny joke. I just pretend it means grace on the inside!
As the days go on those empty spots where Logan filled are so clearly seen and felt. We thank you all for your prayers and comfort. Since the dust is still thick in my house and wherever we go we sure need it.
Happy Mother’s Day to all those women who love a child even if they are not your own. God made a woman’s heart full of enough love to share with those birthed, adopted, mentored, or just taken under our wing.

Much love sent from me to you. Love and hugs, Ann