The days after

Journal entry by Ann — Feb 9, 2017
As we try to get back to our schedule and routines I find it hard to focus. My thoughts are distracted and missing my son. I know by the tears flowing from my girls they are missing their only brother. Since our kids are homeschooled we LIVE in our house day in and day out we are always here spending time together, which makes the loss hit even harder. Everything we do and everywhere we go is together as a family unit.

Logan brought silliness and joy to our house. He would do almost anything the girls asked of him like vacuum dancing and acting out {girl} songs while singing them dramatically. He was a loving son and a great brother.
Though I miss him so much I love the thought of him worshipping the Heavenly Father that brings me great joy. He is protected, safe, fully loved, and no evils of the world are touching my precious boy. He has been spared so many painful things that come our way the older we get and the longer we are here.
I love the thought of him being completely whole! Logan had so many ear surgeries I have lost count, but now his ears hear perfectly! The frustration he had with not being able to hear is gone there’s no need for procedures or hearing aides. Logan’s two fingers that were crooked are perfectly straight and he can grasp things with ease. His joints that were so stiff making it hard for him to do certain things are now new and flexible. Now he can probably do a perfect somersault that doesn’t end in a headstand. Logan was woven together with all these special issues that made him who he was, woven together in my belly by God’s gentle, loving hands. To me he was my perfect baby boy with a heart for God. To God he is a treasure to be delighted in. God knew him better than I did, saw deeper into his heart than I ever could, and has loved him with more love than I ever knew existed.
Thank you Lord for the time we have had with Logan. Our children are a precious gift that so many take for granted. Thank you Lord for the gift of Logan borrowed to us for just a short time. Our lives will forever be altered because of his passing, but we have forever been blessed because Logan was here. Love and hugs, Ann