I finally got the courage! I wrote this in the middle of the night while listening to the respirator breath for him.
Journal entry by Ann Rautio — Jan 19, 2017
I fell in love the day I found out I was pregnant. Just the thoughts of my baby lovingly being woven together by the Creator’s hands brought me great joy. Then the first pictures inside the womb getting to see a glimpse of God’s handiwork. Feeling the first sweet flutterings of movement to the ninja moves with karate kicks. Our lives changed February 27th, 2003 when Logan Howard Rautio was born with two sisters to claim him as their own!
In bringing home our precious baby boy we could not know the heart changing journeys he would bring us on. We have been blessed to share in all these joys and trials.
For those who have had the pleasure of talking with Logan you could easily see his kind heart full of compassion for others. Though you would have also been quickly made aware that he has no filter! He said what he thought and spoke his heart through that same broken filter.
I am in love with his gentle, loving nature. I love his eyes that sparkle with joy. I love his strength inside and out. I love the way he is always getting ideas, thinking, and coming up with solutions to fix everything and everyone. I love his heart that is filled with compassion and love. I love the scars on his arms and legs which I’m sure he’d like to claim came from a battle with knives, but really came from scratching scabs. Even the mosquitos loved him! I love his passion for the outdoors. If he could live in the woods he would. I love his passion for history and his aversion to grammar. I love how he read the Bible nightly and read the Scripture of the day when woke up. I love his enveloping hugs. I love the way sought out Scripture to help him with life.
I love my sweet, sweet boy. But most of all I love the way he loves Jesus!
Thank you for all the love, time, prayers, support, and food Love and hugs, Ann (mom)
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